A Week and Some Change

Today is April 19th. That leaves 11 days until the big day.

Yesterday I bought my cap and gown, which was odd. I tried it on when I got home and marched around the room to pomp and circumstance. I guess I march to the beat of my own drum ( badum-chhh)

Any way some interesting things have happened since I last updated. I failed a research paper. Yes, I FAILED a research paper that I worked on for 3 weeks. I'd understand if I wrote it the night before, but no, I put a lot of effort into the paper. I like writing and have always been good at it so this 50% came as a surprise. I went to the teacher's office to talk about my grade (mostly to see if there was a mistake). There was no mistake, she hated my paper. As she tore me apart, I may have cried. That's right. I cried in a Professor's office...A teacher who didn't know my name before I entered her office. It was embarrassing to say the least.

I'm over that now (OK, I still think about it sometimes and cringe). As for my career- I received an e-mail
address for a director. I will be following up on that as soon as I finish this entry. I also found out that a Jason Segel Emily Blunt movie is coming to Michigan to be made. I would love to get a part in that, heck I'd love to be an extra. I'm going to call my agent and see if there are any parts that I could fit. Yippee.

 This weekend is the Chicago trip with my girlfriends and I can't wait. After that, one week of finals and I'm outta here.

One Month

ONE MONTH.

Yes, you heard correctly. One month until graduation. This next month is going to be horrible, but i'm going to make it fabulous.

Things to look forward to:
1) Trip to Chicago with my girlfriends
2) Holding my diploma
3) Entering the real world
4) Really trying this acting thing
5) Sleeping


Things to not look forward to:
1) Homework
2) Finals
3) Research papers( I've got a lot of those)
4) Saying goodbye
5) Moving out
6) Re-moving in( no offense mom and dad)

I have a lot to do and a lot to think about. I can't believe this is happening so quickly. I feel like yesterday I was a freshman in college who was sad for the year to end. I can't believe 4 years have gone by so quickly.

                               My very best friends from  Freshman year. Things have changed ,
                                          but they understand me better than most people.

To-Do List

My to-do list is awfully large.
The first item on my list:

E-mail any type of connection that can help me get a job. This includes so many people that this list is a little daunting. It has been a week since I sent out to do this and I've only e-mailed one person. And no, they haven't responded.

The second item on my list:

Research what maid of honor duties entail. Also,  figure out bridesmaid dress as well as creative gift ideas.

The third item on my list:

FIGURE OUT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

There are 6 weeks until graduation. I need to get my act together.

Graduation

I am graduating from college on April 30th. What does that mean?

The end.
The beginning.
The future.
Uncertainty.

Its pretty embarrassing when people ask me "what's next". I've never been spontaneous. I like making plans  and lists and knowing what I'll be doing. This is the first time that I've "free willied" this whole life thing. It is rather exhilarating. However, the feeling of freedom is soon shadowed by my over whelming fear of failure. Why didn't I apply for grad school? Why don't I have a job lined up already? Why, why, why...That is all I seem to be asking myself. The biggest why question that I ask myself every so often is:

Why couldn't I pick a normal career?

The majority of the actors in the world are unemployed.With or without a recession. I picked this career because it is something that I feel passionate for. I feel a hunger to succeed. I remind myself of this fact every time I wake in the middle of the night with a knot in my stomach.

I decided to get a blog so I can share information about what a freshly graduated person who is entering the real world does to get a job. I hope to share experiences about breaking into the acting world .

Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.