Unemployed

It has been 18 days since I walked across the stage to get my diploma. In those 18 days I have e-mailed, called, and researched information on films in Michigan. What has come out of  this work, you ask? Nothing. Everyone is struggling. Sensible people who went to college for non artistic majors are unemployed.
It has only been 18 days. I have to remind myself of this fact. It seems like forever.

Graduate.

I am a college graduate. I have a bachelor of arts degree in theatre.

WWWHHHHAAAATTTTT.

Yesterday was the big day. Things were perfect. I have nothing to add. Tomorrow I am moving home and starting to work towards my future goals. Today I will enjoy the day with my best friends. I will not think about the goodbyes that will take place. I will not think about uncertainty. I am living in the present,

A Week and Some Change

Today is April 19th. That leaves 11 days until the big day.

Yesterday I bought my cap and gown, which was odd. I tried it on when I got home and marched around the room to pomp and circumstance. I guess I march to the beat of my own drum ( badum-chhh)

Any way some interesting things have happened since I last updated. I failed a research paper. Yes, I FAILED a research paper that I worked on for 3 weeks. I'd understand if I wrote it the night before, but no, I put a lot of effort into the paper. I like writing and have always been good at it so this 50% came as a surprise. I went to the teacher's office to talk about my grade (mostly to see if there was a mistake). There was no mistake, she hated my paper. As she tore me apart, I may have cried. That's right. I cried in a Professor's office...A teacher who didn't know my name before I entered her office. It was embarrassing to say the least.

I'm over that now (OK, I still think about it sometimes and cringe). As for my career- I received an e-mail
address for a director. I will be following up on that as soon as I finish this entry. I also found out that a Jason Segel Emily Blunt movie is coming to Michigan to be made. I would love to get a part in that, heck I'd love to be an extra. I'm going to call my agent and see if there are any parts that I could fit. Yippee.

 This weekend is the Chicago trip with my girlfriends and I can't wait. After that, one week of finals and I'm outta here.

Farwell Tour 2011

Today I begin my farwell tour.

It's 1:46 am and I am too sad to sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I think of the goodbyes that will be happening soon. It really breaks my heart to acknowledge what is coming up.

Today, I say my first goobye. My dear friend is leaving for Germany followed by Italy and it will be about a year until I see him again. Today I called him just because I won't be able to do so in a couple of days. This upsets me for a variety of reasons. Despite missing my friend, this means that the end is really here. I used to judge his departure as something in the far away future. Now April is here and it is being bossy. I feel like everything is in shambles AND I don't know how to say goodbye.

 Not goodbye , but farwell. I should google that. All I know is that I'm going to be a hot mess tomorrow. Dylan- Thank you for putting up with my theatre jibber jabber and seeing so many plays with me. And thanks for setting me up with my best friends. I'll miss you. See you in a year.

(The Core Four + Moore)

One Month

ONE MONTH.

Yes, you heard correctly. One month until graduation. This next month is going to be horrible, but i'm going to make it fabulous.

Things to look forward to:
1) Trip to Chicago with my girlfriends
2) Holding my diploma
3) Entering the real world
4) Really trying this acting thing
5) Sleeping


Things to not look forward to:
1) Homework
2) Finals
3) Research papers( I've got a lot of those)
4) Saying goodbye
5) Moving out
6) Re-moving in( no offense mom and dad)

I have a lot to do and a lot to think about. I can't believe this is happening so quickly. I feel like yesterday I was a freshman in college who was sad for the year to end. I can't believe 4 years have gone by so quickly.

                               My very best friends from  Freshman year. Things have changed ,
                                          but they understand me better than most people.

How Not to Say Goodbye

    I've been pretty mean to my friends lately. I don't mean to be but it just kinda happens. They told me its because I'm trying to distance myself so it makes the separation easier on myself. According to them, it wont work. 

     If you've read my other two entries, you know how freaked out I am about the future. Last night was one of the few nights I've slept in a long time. However, what I'm concerned about is leaving the familiarity of my school and friends.

     In a couple of weeks- POOF- the past four years will seems like a strange dream. Many of my friends are also graduating. Who knows when or even if I'll see them again. I also have a few friends that will still be in school. Is it lame to visit your old college as a post-grad? I remember in high school it was sooooo lame for the grads to come and visit. Are things different now?

I've also started to create a break-up mix for my roommate. After living together for 3 years, I told her that its time for us to break up. My mix CD will include:
1) Don't Speak- No Doubt (Just for the line " I feel like I'm loosing my best friend:
2) I Will Remember You- Sarah McLaughlin
3) Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely- BSB
4) All By Myself- Celine Dion
5) Those you've known- Spring Awakening
6) For Good-Wicked
7) Goodbye To You-Michelle Branch
.....and more for only $19.99 you can have a copy too.

I don't care if a Mix-Cd is out of date, but for now it's better than being mean.

                                                                   (The Core Four)

To-Do List

My to-do list is awfully large.
The first item on my list:

E-mail any type of connection that can help me get a job. This includes so many people that this list is a little daunting. It has been a week since I sent out to do this and I've only e-mailed one person. And no, they haven't responded.

The second item on my list:

Research what maid of honor duties entail. Also,  figure out bridesmaid dress as well as creative gift ideas.

The third item on my list:

FIGURE OUT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

There are 6 weeks until graduation. I need to get my act together.