It has been about a month since my last entry. I've had a lot of highs and lows during this time. Isn't it crazy that when one bad thing happens you dwell on it? You consider every little thing that happens a part of this bad karma that you have going on. I've been stuck in that cycle and am trying to break free.
As of my last post, I met with my agent and she suggested I take an acting workshop to prove to her that I can act. The man in charge of the workshop(a soap star!) e-mailed her and told her that I did a great job.
I also won a free lesson with the guy which I have yet to take.
After the work shop I planned on visiting my dear friends in Grand Rapids. I packed my car and started out on the 2 hour journey. About 15 minutes into the trip, I hit another car and had a fender bender. My car looked like a can opener had its way with it. I was devastated. Everyone was alright, which is the most important part of this story. The other people involved were very mean and made me cry even harder. Luckily, the police officer was an amazing man who helped me out beyond my comprehension.However, this negative event began a downward pity party that I held for far too long.
Since the accident I have been a very nervous driver and passenger. I am so scared to be in that situation again. It also cost over$700(Thank goodness for insurance) to get my car fixed. Also, my Agent hasn't called even though she said she'd be submitting me for films.
The party climaxed when I went to an audition and the directer asked how much I weighed and after I told him asked if I eat a lot of McDonald's. He also commented on how I was too big to play the lead role (WHICH IS FOR A 10 YEAR OLD GIRL). This hurt my confidence and self esteem more than I will let on. This is about when my hip started hurting again. I've been having hip pain since high school and have been to Physical therapy 3 times for it.
After this I decided to give up on the pity party and add some positivism into my life. I hosted Sparks in the Park with my Mom. Over 10,000 people saw this event and I will be able to add host to my resume. I ended up getting a paid role in the movie with the ruse director, which I shot today. The director also said that he would change things so I could have a lead role. He also mentioned that he was filming a new movie and that he would like me to be in it. I'm not sure that I want to do this because the man really hurt my feelings. However, it is nice to know that I did a good job. I also have been going to chiropractor regularly to get my hip back in non limping condition.
Lastly, I found out that I will be going to California next week. I hope to make connections to help my career.
The point of this blog is that feeling sorry for yourself doesn't help anything at all. It adds more stress and unwanted emotions. So the next time that you feel like having a pity party, put away the pinata and go for a run (that is if your hip can handle it) .Clear your head and think of something positive.
Happy Fourth of July. A big thanks to everyone that fights or has fought to keep this country safe. Bet your bottom dollar that these people never had a pity party.
